My Life As A University Student: Chapter 184

Back Home, Bye 2010!

In Perak. With much ease of mind. Didn't plan on reading or studying or anything. Just let the time flow.

Today is the last day of 2010, perhaps this is the last post of 2010 as well. Not surprisingly, the amount of posts had double from last year. I'm getting a lot more comfortable in writing.

But at the same time, I found myself, as the year draw to a close, harder in expressing myself.

I guess when you gain something, you will lose something else.

Thus that's what 2010 had been. Few gains, few lost.

Few cheers, few tears.

Few ease, few wrenching.

"Had 2010 been a better year for you?", as one may ask.

It's hard to tell really. I knew at some points I had improved. Yet I also knew that at some points, I dropped. Plummet even. Also, there are something in me that never changed, even when everything or everyone else did.

'Everybody's changing but I don't feel the same'

I wish I could say, "2010 had been the best year in my life!", or "I had become a better man in 2010!!".

But I just couldn't say that. I had been wiser, but I had made some foolish mistakes as well. Like I said earlier, there are some point which had been good, and some points which had been bad.

What I can conclude is that, 2010 had been another year that had it's own achievements and lows. I do not hate 2010, but I don't like it either. I do not wish for it to end, but when it does, I know I will be glad. Not much of my dreams come true, but at the very least, I had tried.

I tried and I won, and so I smile.

I tried and I lost, and so I cried.

But in the end, I knew that the graph of my "path to manhood" is increasing. Slowly, progressively, it increase.

All I need to do, is be patience.

Perhaps, that's is all what 2010 is all about. Being patience.

'Just have a little patience'

So here I am. Back home. To where it all begins, and to where it all ends.

Waiting for 2010 to end.

So long 2010.

oh yeah!

So long to the wonderful memories, you shall always be remembered. Goodbye heartbreaking moments, for you too shall not be forgotten.

Happy New Year Everyone.





p.s: "Everybody's changing, but I don't feel the same*". "Just have a little...patience**".
*Keane: Everybody's changing
**Take That: Patience

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Thank you Malaysia

I am a shrivelling fluid container. Every single drop of energy inside of me had been sap out after three days of running an event.

How do I celebrate it, by my own means?

I spend hours watching my air conditioner being fix, "yippie"!

Fortunately, tomorrow is holiday. Thanks to the Prime Minister who announce it. Thanks to the Harimau Malaya for the cause of it. Thanks MSU for taking it.

Someone ask me, "What you're going to do to celebrate it (the holiday and the new year)?"

"..."

I just don't know. Few years back, there would be celebration.

Lately, getting a good rest seem like a really great celebration already!

"Aiyo, you cannot do that, you're a young man, this is your time to explore everything"

Yeah, he's right.

I should.

Let's start by going back to home town and had a good rest, shall we? (laugh)

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of root beer and tears

Dear God, forgive me for my sins

My Life As A University Student: Chapter 181

Saturday.

Today, I forgot that it was Christmas. Thus, I had earlier thought of dwelling myself in the campus, acting like a nerd, but in actual truth: wanting to act like a geek, knowing how fast internet in the campus can be.

Then the hard truth hits me as I reached the gate.

"Office tutup la adik, harini orang cuti" (The office is closed for holiday)

"...ok"

"Mau pegi mana?" (Where you're heading?)

"Tingkat 14" (Floor 14)

...Fourteen floors later, I finally admitted myself to that fact.

With much time to kill (thought of going to find companies to participate for booth, but it's pretty much useless knowing that it's public holiday), the thought of visiting my uncle occurred to me. He had just return from performing Haj, and he was later admitted to the hospital for high fever. I was planning on visiting him yesterday, but that plan did not occurred.

Thus, I drove myself all the way to Puncak Alam, which was surprising far. But of course, everything is short and quick if you spend your entire trip in a vehicle, sleeping.

Another surprise was to see my grandpa and grandma at my uncle home, as they were supposed to be in Perak. Later, I learnt that my uncle (the healthy one) decided to proceed with his plan of taking my grands from Perak, which was earlier cancelled.

I spend my day there, listening to my uncle and aunt as they spoke of their journey performing Haj. I was a bit worried of my uncle, noticing his high temperature and his rather dramatic loss of weight. But I am glad that he look much better that what I had earlier imagine.

Alhamdulillah, hopefully he will get better. Let us pray for that.

Night came and I had to fetch my parent and my sisters from the airport. I didn't really ask them on how they trip were. They look pretty exhausted to say anything, and I still had a bit of jealousy to ask them anything.

Having not been online for less than a day, I quickly log in as I settle down at home. Grabbing few blogs to read, a few caught my attention.

One of them, was like a dagger stab to the heart.

It was a good post. But it did a great deal of pain to my chest as well.

I felt it. I guess there is truth in the saying, "Siapa gigit cili terasa pedasnya".

Should someone said something, although not direct to you, nor to anyone. But if the content were something that involve you, directly or indirectly, you would feel the words.

Hitting you. The cold, hard, truth.

Suddenly, I recalled of commenting something rather nasty to a friend's status (Facebook).

In truth, I was kidding around, like I would usually do when I'm in a jolly mood. But at that time, my joke was not appropriate.

Thinking back, I'm now feels like a huge brick with the word 'GUILTY' embroiled in it being put at my shoulder. Brick over brick.

Perhaps I really do need to deactivate my facebook account for good.

I am still lack of control over myself.

Not only on the virtual world. The real world as well. Often I spoke of sins, only to 'give example' on the sins itself.

"To say but not to act on the words you said"

You know what's that right?



p.s: Sorry, to you, dear readers. But mostly, sorry, to self, for this blunders over blunders.

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I.

I love you, cause you are the parts of my memory.
You are something that I will always carry on as I walk forward.
You are my inspirational, never were the other way around.

For all that you had done, thank you.
I'm sorry, that most at the time, I offered not but troubles.
For some, tears were shed cause of my foolishness.
For some, you had to feel content with my immaturity.

Yet, you still fill those empty photo films.
With memories that grows wonderful by days, that shine and bloom.
That become my source of courage.
That become my source of motivation.

I know, you had heard this countless of time;
I'm sorry for being a nothing for you.
I'm sorry for being dependent,
and not the one to be dependent on.

But one day, I promise,
I will turn to be just a better man.

One day, you'll wake up,
and I'll be the one to put smiles to your faces.

One day, I'll shine for you.
Just like the way you shine for me.

Do wait

and

Do continue to glow
Filling my empty films
With the wonderful you.

-By Ariff Anuar, aka Nyu2, a dedication to family, friends, and those dear to him.

p.s: Tabidachi, by FLOW...listen to it :)

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Olala~

I don't have any good tittle to be put on for this post. I doubt the post will have any benefit other to self satisfaction of myself.

Anyhow, yesterday.

Yes, what is it, to say, off yesterday?

Well, yesterday was not really the best moment of my life.

Sarawak

I sent my family to Sarawak, with such "A HUGE SMILE" in my face.

Heartbroken really, as I believe that it was me who keep on wishing to return back to Sarawak and had on several occasions, stated out my wish out loud to whoever concern or to whoever I wish to spoke to.

I got my wish, my family did managed to have a holiday there, starting yesterday. But alas, my wish was with a twist; I am not included in the wish-come-true.

But how am I to complain? After all, I had a lot more things undone here...which makes the day worse as I had...

Booth seeking

Which I admitted, I done a terrible (in a negative way) job at it. Up till yesterday, the only company that agree on opening up a booth is the one that my friend manage to find. Upsetting really, to self and to others, as this was the outcome. I failed to meet the expectation, again.

But yesterday, I manage to be a bit content. After numerous failed attempts and several wasted calls, one company agree on participating. Courtesy to my friend, again.

Geez, I'm getting worse at my job and better at...

Hurting people's feeling

Yup, I'm getting good at this. Yesterday, as I was much centred with my non-nonsense problems, I forgot to attend another meeting from another club. I realised it much later in the evening, and quickly address my apology, but as far as I can see it, the damage is done.

Yeah, another negative perspective from others~!

Which remind me, that I had other things that I had delayed for so long...

Just great!

Cooking

Decided to cook yesterday. Another nameless food being born. Well, at least it taste good.

Today

Don't know how it's going to shape up.

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Crazy Day...

Yesterday, was a crazy day.

At least, from the way I see it.

CRAZY 1: I kick start my day with a delay kick; I woke up late. Having "achieved" that, my car could only be content with it's slightly dirty appearance, as his master failed to provide it with an early morning wash. This late start to the day also resulted in temporary confusion when I enter the eateries, wondering on the how "early" does the crowd had their lunch, only to be much ashamed later when it was discovered that it was me who did not have a breakfast!

CRAZY 2: The day becomes crazier as I was invited for "a" game of bowling by the neighbour. Their kindness was a norm; my content stomach was and is the proved of that. The fact that I lost to the game was also normal; nothing much to be expected from me when it comes to sports, unless it's video games. But to "force" this skinny, prone-to-be-drifted-by-the-wind lad to FIVE non-stop games of bowling were indeed crazy! It's a miracle for me to survive that long, knowing that my hand was most likely to wear down after a game, let alone 5! But I survive that, and I even managed to enjoy every single moment of it (save for game 2 and 3, which I did so poorly, but thinking back, I did poorly in all five game..sigh).

CRAZY 3: Actually, it's nothing odd really. I just ate two 6-inch long Kebab from Subway. That's all. For me, it's a norm for me to eat a lot once in a while. Especially when I skip breakfast with little for lunch. Heck, even the girls from my class eat a lot more than I do! Don't believe me? Ask them out for a lunch then! :P

CRAZY 4: The trip to Perak. It was raining heavily as me and my sis headed to Perak. To make matter worse, I was on a "racing mode". I was so eager to drive as fast as I could, trying to reach 120km/h as often as I could. But even a fool like me (other fools are excluded) would know better than to drive fast of a heavy rain. That would spelled for disaster. So, late at night, with heavy rain, I reached Perak (Alhamdulillah) at around 12am.

CRAZY 5: The problem with guys is that they had high egos. That applied, even for me. The reason for my sis to tag along was so that she could act as co-pilot. That was exactly what she did, on going to Perak, That was also what she did, on the return trip. As a co-pilot. Cause her bro refuse to exchange driver. Thus, I endure another 3 hours on the road, driving. This time around, the rain reduce, or else absent. Thus, gleefully, I drove faster. The lane to the right was becoming my favourite. In fact, I could almost called it my "lover", shouldn't the reminders from the passenger from the back halted my progress to speed up even more. For a while. Thus, yesterday was my longest drive yet. I even impress on how well I manage to keep on driving. Usually, my sleeping pattern would resemble those of a kitten or a newborn child (and perhaps the cuteness of self as well). Thus, arriving home in Shah Alam at 3am, I thought I could stay up even longer. But the moment the body left the car, my head becomes heavy and it feels like every single cells in my body were having a night in the most craziest night club. They were intoxicated with glucose, or else adrenaline, and were shaking badly. I guessed I'm still not used to prolong driving.

Thus, as I drifted myself to sleep, my day of craziness ends.

Today, I do hope everything is normal again. Yesterday consume too much energy, and today it's after effect shown...sigh

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This week

Oh, before begin, I would like to announce that my FB is back online. I decided to give another go, just to see how much I could cope with FB...and life. Although, I think it's just me getting bored and wanting to play some game in facebook.

Monday will mark the returning of the usual activities in campus...that is to say, should that Monday be the same.

Fortunately enough, for this coming Monday, it won't. There will be a convocation, for the graduates of MSU. For them, it's a BIG BIG DAY.

For us, it's a BIG BIG HOLIDAY!!

Leaving the future to where it should be - future; I would like to wrote on things that had occurred in the past week.

Well, first, there's the days of facebook deactivation. I need some time off, and I get that. But, seeing how hectic life could be on self and others as one means of communication is cut off, I decided to get back online.

Then, there's this new Arabic restaurant in S.Alam. It was opened just a week ago. The food was great, and I enjoy it a lot. Perhaps a great get-together place? Yeah, it would, should the prices of the foods are much more affordable. So I will only refer that place as a place for a great romantic dinner for two.


Also, lately, I had this craving on Cream Puff. I had always love this delicacies, and having to know a place to get one which actually offer it with taste like a REAL Cream Puff should be, I had been frequently stop by at the shop and get myself a taste of it (them actually).
RM 2.50 for 3 pieces, is it a bargain?


Speaking of foods, I was out with my sister, helping her in her chores (why me?!) and we stopped by at Nachos (I think) for a snack. The meal was excellent, and it was a rather surprise to find out just how hot does an Extra Hot Chilli Sauce was! I forgot much detail on the restaurant though, much to be ashamed of, but that's what happen when you're just much too hungry!


Then, the club finally had some events running. After being awfully quite in the previous semester, the club kick start with a "Motivation Talk" followed by "Meeting with the new BMS and DMS students". Well, I do hope the next coming event would be a success.

Let us hope on that.


This Saturday, me and few others when out to Amalina's house for her wedding her sister's wedding ceremony.

The food there were great!! I grab like almost anything there were in the table!

...

Other than that, the wedding was enjoyable, minus the heat and the crowd (I hate crowd, like I said in my previous post). It was another wedding, but it had something new to offer. There were some refreshing ideas in the wedding. Just to show that even in Malay weddings, varieties exist.


After that weddings, we head off to Pantai Mortib (or was it Pantai Morkib?) PANTAI MORIB. Something felt familiar about the beach, but I assume that it was my first time heading there. We had not prepare anything for swimming (although in spirits, we were eager!), so we spend the afternoon walking down at the beach and snapping photos.

Also, we had a quick stop to the local eateries and grabbed coconut drinks for each one of us. Although the coconut doesn't really taste that much, it was refreshing.

Resuming our leisure, I decided to grab myself a something that I had long wish to had.

A kite. Colourful, pelangi like kite.

Suddenly, all those wonderful memories of childhood lingered back to me.

And we were like that; happy, playful, children.

Who cares of Monday (I do now)? All we cared was at that moment was to had as much fun as we could.


Before I end, I do feel guilty on stressing on food too much (in this post). The truth was/is, I am hungry. Thus, sorry, happy blogging and have a good snack, I mean night, people!


p.s: thank you Fik and Aqmar for the beach's name ^^"