My Life As A University Student: Chapter 246

Haywire.

Afternoon was a bit odd. There was rain, and after that there were lightnings. AFTER THAT. Usually lightnings are during rain, right?

Enjoying the rain and its theraputic effect yet feared of the thunder that came along (or rather 'after') with the rain, I decided to log off. I thought of cycling, but the lightning scared me.

So I come out with a much laughable (and stupid) decision: I played basketball.

"Ariff, there's lightning out there! Are you crazy?", scream myself to self.

"Nah, it's okay, the basketball is made of rubber"

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Anyhow, with little physical activity, I permit my brain to be functional and active. Thus, in between basketball and now, a lot of thoughts had across my mind.

Dunk 1.
My opinion on Malaysia politic is not a good one. I dare say, we Malaysian are seeing adults behaving like spoiled kids, and fighting frequently for little toys called Parliament Seats. I am sure the people grew weary of this. But who else could we choose? Every single players available are behaving such way, and too little amount of good, decent leaders are present to make an impact to the community. The only good is that there's always something fix or introduce during election period (small, small things).

I do wish, that once in a while, all leaders from all available party would do something for the people TOGETHER. Stop being in packs and boasting only on individual or party achievement.
It's not really a good example to the people, especially to us multiracial community.

"I'm from Barisan Nasional (BN)/Pakatan Rakyat (PKR) and today I'm with my friends (from the opposing party) to help this villager clean their sewage system (or any other community service)"

Imaging one leader saying that. Wouldn't that make us proud? Wouldn't that make us wanting to follow their leads?

"I'm from BN/PKR and I'm upset with this man (from the opposing party). We were watching football TOGETHER and my team lost so now I had to pay his teh tarik. But we enjoyed being with ourselves nonetheless"

Well...er...betting is not a good thing but you understand right? Of what I'm trying to say.

Stop this quarrel among ourselves. Let us unite and be together. I wish this could had happen to our leaders. I wish this would happen in the future.

Dunk 2.
I am, despite having wrote earlier that I was excited with my Clinical Attachment, upset with my Clinical Attachment. My first upset was the fact that my CA would not be in Kelantan. Then to make matter worse, we were told that we will only have 24 days visit to the hospital for training during our 6 months of CA. 24 days/6 months. Once a week. That's really not a good margin, or a good length of training time, in my point of view. The worst of them all, is that my training may end up like a class session, as I learnt from my lecturers that BMS students were not allowed to touch patients, or a patient.

That's... a bit frustrating, don't you think? I wonder how my interview would be.

"What did you do during you Industrial training (a.k.a CA)?"

"I watch patients"

"..................................and?"

".................................listen to what the doctor says, and make a report"

"Anything else you would like to add up?"

"I do History taking. I also do a bit of Physical Examination"

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I really do hope that my interview would not turn out this way. I wouldn't mind the extra classes throughout the 6 months of practical, but if we could not had a decent exposure to the industry, we future graduates would really suffer.

Right now, things are not 100% confirm. I do hope the management would thing of something, for the betterments of the students.

Dunk 3.
I had become worse in socialising. I had. I really had. I'm not talking about the Western way of socialising. I'm talking about the Muslim way of socialising. Whilst I had become distance from my family and relatives, I had not controlled my behaviour among friends and colleagues. This is not a good behaviour for me.

What's the point of wishing for something bright, when I failed to take time to polish (myself)?

I had been keening on giving a good impression on people, that I may had forgotten to become a good example of a good impression, the Muslim way, toward others.

Can this changes be reversible? I do hope it can.

Dunk 4.
Although Jessie J sang "It's not about the money", the majority of the population of Earth said otherwise.

Everything is about money nowadays.

Even friends, sometimes. Fortunately, I'm bless with friends who are not a gold digger.

'A friend is not friend the moment he start lending/asking for your money'

And, if he does not pay or at least show gratitude, then he is lesser than friend. Which reminds me, I had a debt to a friend. Don't want to become a gold digger (well, paper printed cash digger), right?

"You better pay Ariff, you better pay"

Haha. Suddenly, I recalled a situation. My future, is something that require cash. My past, is something that sucks the cash out of me. My present, is all about money as well.

Funny, to be worried about financial when I don't even had a work or a salary yet.

Dunk 5.
So many troubles befall on you eh Ariff? So many things to be worried eh? So many shots missed eh?

No wonder I could not think of anything else.

Perhaps this is the way the system works nowadays. They make so much problems to be solved by one self, that one becomes solely focused on himself or herself. Thus our minds are only limited to ourselves, and we could not expand them to the outside world. That's why so many individuals could not give or do anything to the community, even when they had pity or concern on the unfortunates, as they had their own problem to be solve.

Selfish.

I don't think I'm the only one with this behaviour.

It's a character of the ordinary.

I do hope to be able to kick this ordinary out of my life.

Selfless.

I hope. I pray. I act. For that. Insyallah.





p.s: Something is wrong. Can't you feel it?