Me Malaysian in Mesir: Chapter 75

Grateful?

I was, sitting on the make-shift-chair, enjoying my lunch of nasi putih and ayam bakar with sauce on it which was on a make-shift-table (both the chair and the table were originally a bed frame). Remembering I have some vegetable soup I forgot to put, I quickly withdraw the veggie from it's plastic content and pour it to my warm portion of lunch.

Since the soup was cold, and since the weather was colder, the lunch lost it's remaining heat and I'd ended up shivering while eating. 

"Lauk ni, kalau panas-panas sedap..." I begin my would-be-complaint to a friend.

"Tapi, kalau dah sejuk..." as I was about to finish the sentence, I stop, frozen.

Unfortunately my friend ended the speech, "...jadi tak sedap" 

No, I did not stop because the coldness of the food cooled down my nerve or anything (as seen in Ice-cream headache). I stop frozen at mid-sentence because I recalled that it is not good to comment bad things on others, living on nonliving things. Even on food.

I stopped because I felt guilty. I was not being grateful. I was enjoying it, wasn't I? Why must I be complaining. Since I was also complaining on the weather, could it be I had been complaining on what God had offered me?

First, the food was free. Our agency had been generous; they provide free lunch and dinner to students under the agency during exam period. The menus were arranged; feedback were constantly received to improve the service. Heck, even catering had been changed when the foods received where not satisfactory. 

Second, the food was warm when it arrived; I was the one who choose to eat it late. 

So, why must I be complaining? Why must I been saying bad stuffs on eat. The Prophet S.A.W never commented badly on food. If he like it, he eat it. If he doesn't like it, he doesn't say anything about it (If it's haram than the Prophet will prohibited it from being eaten by Muslim).

Reflecting back, there are also countless of times when I put my speech before my thought. Criticizing on others, criticizing on self, back-talk and gossips. Funny, doing things that I claim to hate.

Maybe I just hate them when others do such behaviors on me. Selfish..right?

To change for better is a continuous progress.

I should start, by removing this small bad habits of mine, continuously. InsyaAllah.

Thank you for the food Ya Rabbi. Forgive your servant for being ungrateful.