Random Rant
Hu ha hu..
A couple of papers to go before I can say Sayonara to Semester 1!
Semester 1...haha, that always seem like a joke.
Friends and family who by now are wondering what happened to their facebook; don't worry, nothing is wrong with it.
No glitches, defect or maintenance or whatsoever.
It's just a major lacking of friend's update, due to the fact that I'm not around to bombarded it with much too constant postings.
Haha, don't celebrate yet, I'm only deactivating it for a while, since I've got exams here. Yes, I'll be back to torment you guys, polluting your newsfeed (Is this what their called it? The little box at the upper right quadrant of the page, which constantly post your friend's updates) with my emotionally derived, psychotic postings. (Yes, you may cry in anguish)
Too little good, too much bad. Yup.
Hu ha hu..
Puffing, was I tonight, as it was my house turn to take the food from the restaurant. Agency that help me in my study had been generous; students under the agency were/are provided with foods for lunch and dinner during exam period. Although part of me wish delivery was included in it as well. Remember my previous post? Human, at least I, never seem to be enough with what is/are given.
So away was I, with a friend of mine, taking the food from the restaurant which was unfortunately quite far,but annoyingly not far enough to be considering a cab, unless you're very very very weak. Or unless you're a girl, not that I'm saying girl is weak or anything, don't get me wrong, it's just that guy have more energy and muscle strength while the girl strong organs which are known so far by mankind besides the wombs which are capable to content a single or more living being(s) is the vocal cord which explain why girl never get tired of nagging people especially guys (could it be guys have strong ears to withstand that overly loud noises?). Haha. With that, I hereby begin my battle of the sexes with any female readers out there, but before we start throwing pens and paper (I was in exam mode remember?) and before I had to deliberately lose whether I win or not (cruel reality of the battle of sexes; right or wrong, men always loses), let me continue my rant.
Reached there, took the food, return back to the dwelling, delivered. All task involve energy, which I'm lack of it due to my own fault of spending the whole morning in my room and not care to take even a single bite of the would-be-reduce-to-glucose/fatty acid/amino acid-materials a.k.a food. Having missed lunch for sleep, I felt like I had been fasting. The "hu ha hu" made me recalled of the upcoming trip for winter holiday (Since I was questioning the fitness level of myself).
The eagerly awaiting trip to Sinai.
Which sadly, I had choose to not go.
I do hope I do not effect my colleague's mood or anything by saying no. Despite similar semester, our view of life are totally different. They at their time and age are at moments to receive the best the world could offer.
Mine? I'm considered it to be the time when I should be the one offering, instead of receiving.
I hope I won't ruins theirs now. Let their present be a present.
As for me...the thought of me enjoying myself whilst my family back home working hard and burning the midnight oils just so I have cash to spend hit me so deep that to be enjoying myself seem like an awful sin. Someday I will had a chance to enjoy myself around Egypt and to climb that mountain in Sinai. But let that be later. I've always seem to put leisure first over goals. Self over family.
Maybe I should rotate that 180 degree.
That way, when I have something to enjoy, I won't have somewhat guilt to goes along with it.
And I'll be more grateful with what I have, and make the best of it.
Hu ha hu.
Food eaten. Stomach content. But heart?
Hu ha hu...it's mixed with feeling. Complicated. Perfect. :)
p.s: Hiking Gunung Sinai, yes, like any other goals in my life, I will make sure to accomplish it!
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